Mental Health, Random Thoughts

Flooded

When you’re world comes crashing down it’s like you can’t even breathe

You try to get up again and again but your drowning in you’re tears

They won’t stop, until it’s a flood of cries and agony

Finally you can stand up again but at this point it feels cold

You only feel emotion when you let the waterfall cascade down

Now there is a choice that you have to make

A choice that can affect everything

Do you drown with the flood or do you embrace the cold?

Health, Lets Get Talking!

The Ability of Positive Thinking

I’m a firm believer in positive thinking brings a positive outcome. Now there are some things in life this isn’t going to work with, I have quickly learned getting pregnant is one of them. But overall if you keep a positive mindset positive things will happen.
One example of this is when I worked in the Diamond Mines, it was a fly-in-fly-out camp only and due to foggy weather, a plane had not landed in three days. I got off my shift and started signing “the fog’s rolling out and I’m going home tomorrow.” All the guys kept telling me, you’re not going home we’ve been stuck here for three days now, I told them positive thinking brings a positive outcome. Needless to say, the next day the plane did not land due to fog, but… I still got to go home. They sent two twin otters in and were able to send 24 people out of 160 home, they did it by random draw, I was the first name on the list for the second otter. I smiled at the negative nellies that told me I wouldn’t go home “see I told you positive thinking brings positive outcome.”
This is just one example of how positivity can make reality, my husband would say it’s just a coincidence, I believe positive thinking is a powerful mind tool and with it you can make things happen! So, what are you going to make happen today?

Fitness, Health

Working out is painful

It’s hard to get into a new workout routine regardless of your fitness level.

I play sports and walk on a regular basis overall I’m a pretty active person. I’m also a junk foodaholic, and trying not to gain weight from quitting smoking. So I started going to this fitness class and it was going really good, as the weeks progress it’s getting more challenging. I had class Monday evening, I woke up Tuesday and my thighs were extremely sore  but I really am trying to lose weight so I went to my friend’s house and we did one of the Jillian Michaels shred DVD’s. Oh, my goodness, I had to hold on to the counter to sit on the toilet all day yesterday and walking, in general, was a tad bit painful by heaven forbid I had to go down the stairs. I know the saying is no pain no gain, but it’s no wonder so many of us get easily discouraged from working out when things like this happen. The worst part is, if we aren’t working out hard enough it’s also discouraging because the results from doing mild works out take so much longer if at all to see progress. So you have two options: workout for no reason (sarcasm: any type of exercise is better than no exercise) or workout till you can’t move the next day then give your self a rest day and start again. Which one would you choose? Me if I was skinner neither but since I’m not…. may as well chose the no pain no gain motto! No rest for the wicked a new work out awaits me!

 

 

 

 

 

Health, Mental Health

My Anxiety

Mental health is still such a faux pas in this day and age even though we talk about it all the time. Bell does their big mental health awareness to raise money, there are constant posts on Facebook with numbers for the helplines and people talking about their own struggles or at least sharing someone else’s. In most cases, it’s sharing someone else’s, because unfortunately even though a number of us struggle with mental health issues no one truly wants to admit it.
I’ve struggled with anxiety since 2006, sometimes it can be really bad but I know what my major triggers are and let the people around me know them as well.
Where it stems from:
In 2006 I was dating a fabulous guy. We both worked away on rotational jobs at different diamond mines but with the same rotation. So in other words, when he was home for 2 weeks so was I. We lived in the same apartment building and although we spent most of our time home together we did not live together. Every Monday night his guy friends had a poker night, so the second Monday we were home I told him to go. He said he didn’t want to, he wanted to veg out with me. I told him he needs his guy time too (back when I was a super chill girlfriend), I gave him the keys for my apartment and told him to come crawl in bed with me after. I woke up in the morning alone. I didn’t think much of it, he probably got drunk and slept over at one of the guys or just went to his own apartment. Continue reading “My Anxiety”

Health

Be Your Best Self

One of my last blogs my friend read it and asked me “if I feel squishy what does that make her.” I responded with “be the best you”. She’s a beautiful girl who is self-conscious like the rest of us. I have friends who have a bigger pant size than me and a smaller pant size than me, 95% of them are insecure about their bodies. At the end of the day, all we can do is be our best selves. Continue reading “Be Your Best Self”

Health

Self-Awareness,Self Esteem and Self Worth

Self-Awareness is conscious knowledge of one’s own character, feelings, motives and Desire

Yesterday at school I listened to one of the grade 8 students give a speech about Self Awareness. She wrote this as an essay for her English teacher and then had to get up in front of her class and read it. What a fabulous job she did. Not Only was it well written, reflective, and well researched but the presentation showed that she was completely comfortable, confident and self-aware. I was in awe, I’m a 32-year-old woman who is married, has her dream job and is loving life but in less than 5 minutes I realized this young girl at 13 has more confidence, self-awareness, and self-appreciation for her self than I ever could have at this point in my life.
Junior high is a rough year, you have so many hormonal changes going on, the kids are starting to truly realize their true strengths and weakness, their starting to establish their future goals and ambitions. The whole world is in the palm of their hands at that age, they’re unstoppable. I realize not all junior high students are as lucky as this one student, and that for some their self-confidence is at an all-time low. But I once was her, so where did it all go?

How many of us women have forgotten that the most important person in your life is you. Without a positive self-worth  how are we supposed to be the best wives, friends, and mothers we can be.  Self-worth comes from being self aware. So in what point of my life did I stop being self aware?

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