After almost a full year of not smoking, I started smoking again.
When you’re world comes crashing down it’s like you can’t even breathe
You try to get up again and again but your drowning in you’re tears
They won’t stop, until it’s a flood of cries and agony
Finally you can stand up again but at this point it feels cold
You only feel emotion when you let the waterfall cascade down
Now there is a choice that you have to make
A choice that can affect everything
Do you drown with the flood or do you embrace the cold?
I’m a firm believer in positive thinking brings a positive outcome. Now there are some things in life this isn’t going to work with, I have quickly learned getting pregnant is one of them. But overall if you keep a positive mindset positive things will happen.
One example of this is when I worked in the Diamond Mines, it was a fly-in-fly-out camp only and due to foggy weather, a plane had not landed in three days. I got off my shift and started signing “the fog’s rolling out and I’m going home tomorrow.” All the guys kept telling me, you’re not going home we’ve been stuck here for three days now, I told them positive thinking brings a positive outcome. Needless to say, the next day the plane did not land due to fog, but… I still got to go home. They sent two twin otters in and were able to send 24 people out of 160 home, they did it by random draw, I was the first name on the list for the second otter. I smiled at the negative nellies that told me I wouldn’t go home “see I told you positive thinking brings positive outcome.”
This is just one example of how positivity can make reality, my husband would say it’s just a coincidence, I believe positive thinking is a powerful mind tool and with it you can make things happen! So, what are you going to make happen today?
It’s hard to get into a new workout routine regardless of your fitness level.
I play sports and walk on a regular basis overall I’m a pretty active person. I’m also a junk foodaholic, and trying not to gain weight from quitting smoking. So I started going to this fitness class and it was going really good, as the weeks progress it’s getting more challenging. I had class Monday evening, I woke up Tuesday and my thighs were extremely sore but I really am trying to lose weight so I went to my friend’s house and we did one of the Jillian Michaels shred DVD’s. Oh, my goodness, I had to hold on to the counter to sit on the toilet all day yesterday and walking, in general, was a tad bit painful by heaven forbid I had to go down the stairs. I know the saying is no pain no gain, but it’s no wonder so many of us get easily discouraged from working out when things like this happen. The worst part is, if we aren’t working out hard enough it’s also discouraging because the results from doing mild works out take so much longer if at all to see progress. So you have two options: workout for no reason (sarcasm: any type of exercise is better than no exercise) or workout till you can’t move the next day then give your self a rest day and start again. Which one would you choose? Me if I was skinner neither but since I’m not…. may as well chose the no pain no gain motto! No rest for the wicked a new work out awaits me!
I am a non smoker!
It’s been two weeks since my 1 day slip 3 weeks since my quit date. It’s getting a bit easier every day. There are still times that I really crave a cigarette, but am thankfully able to distract myself and resist.
Mental health is still such a faux pas in this day and age even though we talk about it all the time. Bell does their big mental health awareness to raise money, there are constant posts on Facebook with numbers for the helplines and people talking about their own struggles or at least sharing someone else’s. In most cases, it’s sharing someone else’s, because unfortunately even though a number of us struggle with mental health issues no one truly wants to admit it.
I’ve struggled with anxiety since 2006, sometimes it can be really bad but I know what my major triggers are and let the people around me know them as well.
Where it stems from:
In 2006 I was dating a fabulous guy. We both worked away on rotational jobs at different diamond mines but with the same rotation. So in other words, when he was home for 2 weeks so was I. We lived in the same apartment building and although we spent most of our time home together we did not live together. Every Monday night his guy friends had a poker night, so the second Monday we were home I told him to go. He said he didn’t want to, he wanted to veg out with me. I told him he needs his guy time too (back when I was a super chill girlfriend), I gave him the keys for my apartment and told him to come crawl in bed with me after. I woke up in the morning alone. I didn’t think much of it, he probably got drunk and slept over at one of the guys or just went to his own apartment. Continue reading “My Anxiety”
One of my last blogs my friend read it and asked me “if I feel squishy what does that make her.” I responded with “be the best you”. She’s a beautiful girl who is self-conscious like the rest of us. I have friends who have a bigger pant size than me and a smaller pant size than me, 95% of them are insecure about their bodies. At the end of the day, all we can do is be our best selves. Continue reading “Be Your Best Self”