Health, Quitting Smoking

The Never Ending Fun of Quitting Smoking

Smoking. One of the worst things you can ever do. The odd person is lucky, they pick one up have it occasionally. These smokers are normally classified as a social smoker, and they can put it down at any time. In a lot of situations they don’t even really enjoy a smoke unless they are drunk. Than there is us……

The people who smoke every day, all the time. We have a never ending addiction with a plethora of excuses on why we need it. “It destresses me, I’m more productive, its my only chance to have a break, it helps me sleep, it suppresses my appetite,” the list goes on and on. One of the biggest reasons a number of smokers will tell you is: “I enjoy it.” I call bullshit. When you take a step back no one enjoys smoking. Everything on you smells, your fingers and teeth are stained, it’s slowly killing you. No big deal though.

The reality is we smoke because we are addicted. Nicotine affects many parts of our body including our brain. Over time our body and brain get used to having nicotine in them. Nicotine reaches your brain within several seconds of entering your body. It causes the brain to release adrenaline and that creates a buzz of pleasure and energy. I mean when you put it that way fuck lets go have a smoke. I personally like buzzes of pleasure and energy. The problem is that the buzz quickly fades and then you feel tired or a little down and need that buzz again. This is a never ending cycle. With time, we know the only thing that will give us the buzz we are craving is nicotine, so we are lighting up more and more to get that feeling. Now your smoking more and more so Nicotine is slowly integrating itself into part of you’re daily routine. You wake up have a smoke. You eat breakfast, have a smoke. You have sex, you have a smoke. So the nicotine got you wanting that buzz and then the routine becomes a habit. This now makes it impossible to give it up. You have to re organize your whole life when you quit smoking and deal with the symptoms of withdrawal from the nicotine.

Symptoms of withdrawal include:
Feeling down or sad
Having trouble sleeping
Feeling edgy or moody
Having trouble concentrating
Feeling restless
Feeling hungry and weight gain
Slower heart rate
When you look at what you have to go through with withdraws and almost feeling like you have to restart your life because smoking is so integrated its no wonder we all fail so often at quitting,

I started smoking when I was 13. I haven’t even lived half my life yet and I’ve been smoking for more than half the time I’ve been alive. Is that not crazy! I started trying to quit around the age of 18. First attempt cold turkey. It was so long ago now I don’t remember how it went, but obviously it didn’t work. My next attempt I was 20 and tried zyband. This was fun, it really was working I wasn’t smoking I was excited and felt like I was going to beat this. I was in a community young adults pageant, and the day the pageant started, I broke out with hives all over my body. So I gave up the Zyband and started smoking again. 4 Years later I read Allen Carr’s easy way to quit smoking, a lot of many people recommend this book and swears by it. Not to discredit their opinion but for me personally I found it a bunch of bullshit. The next time I tried to quit was2 years later using champix. I asked my boyfriend to quit as well to support me. So he did, he’s now my husband and has been quit for 4 years. Champix was really successful for him. For me on the other hand I was a scatter brain. It made me feel like a bobble head doll, I couldn’t concentrate or remember anything, and I had tears running down my face all the time even though I didn’t feel sad. I had to give it up, it was not good for me. Guess what, again I started smoking, Another fail.

Jump to January 30th, 2018. Another attempt at quitting smoking, this time cold turkey using the patch. The first day it was hell. I was a super bitch to my husband, got mad at him for not supporting me and he told me to go have a smoke. That just pissed me off even more, had a blowout due to this. I went and had smoke This fight had nothing to do with my husband being supportive, it had to do to the nicotine monster inside of me. I didn’t have a smoke again until a week later. I had some hard days so friggin hard I thought I was going to cave. I also had some great days where I thought I had this beat. Then Tuesday February 6th came. I had forgotten to put my patch on for two days. My husband left for work the day before (hes gone for two weeks at a time) I felt bored, I felt anxious, I paced the floors in my house for two hours having an internal war with myself. This was my worst day yet. I put my shoes on to go to the store, then I’d take them off. Eventually I gave in, I went to the store and bought a pack. The first couple puffs were so gross, but I kept smoking it. Eventually I got that feeling, that adrenaline rush I’d been missing, it felt so good. When it was gone I felt ashamed for caving, I said to myself, that’s all I needed, I’m good. Needless to say, I’m an addict, I continued to smoke a good portion of the pack for the rest of the day. That night I had darts, I decided I need to jump right back on the quit smoking train otherwise who knows how long till my next quit a week, 2, a month a year. There’s always a reason to keep pushing back your quit date when you’re a smoker, an addict. So that night I left my smokes with another smoker. I went to bed when I got home and started my journey again as a none smoker in the morning. I’m almost at a week again there has still been hard days and good days. The thing is the hard days haven’t been nearly as hard as the previous week. Everyday is getting better, every day is getting easier. I hope this time I have it beat. It’s still too early to say for sure. What I do know is that even if I fail this time, that if I keep trying I will beat it. I will succeed, I will be a non-smoker!

If anyone out there is ready to quit. There are tons of different methods that will work. They say if you’re ready to quit you just will. I’m a firm believer in most aspect of life that if you believe it will work, it will. So use all the resources you can. Find a method that works for you. Get support! Your support may come from friends, family or surprising new acquaintances. The Life Strong app My Quit Coach has an amazing group of people going through exactly what we are going through now. Some are leading up to their quit, some have quit for a few days or weeks and others have quit for a long time and are still there cheering you on. It’s amazing that people from all over come together to support eachother for the same goal. NOPE-Not one puff ever!

You can do this, I can do this, together we can beat this addiction.

3 thoughts on “The Never Ending Fun of Quitting Smoking”

  1. I relate. Started at 13 myself. Mid 50’s now and just jumped back on the quitting train. For me, Chantix, was a suicide waiting to happen…full on side effects. I can check off all the withdrawal symptoms except hunger….that goes away on day 3 when I lose my will to live. Lol Vaping works but only when I started full strength. I could then reduce nicotine levels. My sense of smell came back 1st. I’ll have to say that I’ve found smelling to be overrated. Most things stink, especially smokers, of course they can’t smell it! And, dog food! I can smell that stored in the neighbors house! Hahaha

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